Archive for November, 2009

Soul Food…Yums

November 30, 2009

Stocked up on soul food lately. *Yums* 🙂

Can’t wait to devour them all and get more! 




November 22, 2009

I want to surrender my all to God, because he knows what is best for me.

That’s nice….but how about,

I want to surrender my all to God, because he knows what is best for HIM?

Many times, I find myself surrendering to God, thinking that as I give to God areas of my life, he will in turn lead me to my dreams. But as I walk longer with God, I don’t find that to be true. At some point, it gets a tad frustrating, till, I was prompted the question, “if you were to give up all that you have for God, yet your dreams will not be fulfilled, will you still surrender?”


And it really dawn upon me, the true essence of surrender.

I suddenly realize that, even if my dreams are not being realized, I will still find soul satisfaction. As when I surrender to God and walk in his ways, I am already fulfilling my life purpose. My life purpose is not found in my dreams, but the will of God, his heartbeat. Now, do I stop dreaming then? No, i still dream big, but along the way, I allow God to refine my dreams to align with his will.

I want to surrender with a childlike faith, wholehearted trust.

Ending this post with a photo of 2 wonderful ladies in my life.

Shirley Melinda and Debbie Chong, thank you for your patience and support through different seasons of my life. Both of you brought warmth to a winter season as such. 🙂

Beyond pragmatism

November 15, 2009


When all else fade, my soul will dance, with you, where the love last forever.

Tonight, I’m reminded that relationship with God is more than just a transaction. It’s more than just what can I do for you God or what can you do for me God. But it can simply be enjoying the presence of God. It’s my being that he is more concern than the acts that I put up. 

I was just praying in the spirit when a voice in me asked,  “What will you do to get close to God?”

I paused for a while. And that got me thinking, how serious am I about this relationship with God?

I resolve in my heart, that I will do all that I can to get closer, changing my lifestyle or preference if needed. Because without God, my soul will be dead, without a soul, I will be a walking dead.

It’s not about the things or achievement, it’s about a relationship that I am pursuing after, the heart of God.

 “Knowing the correct password—saying ‘Master, Master,’ for instance— isn’t going to get you anywhere with me. What is required is serious obedience—doing what my Father wills. I can see it now—at the Final Judgment thousands strutting up to me and saying, ‘Master, we preached the Message, we bashed the demons, our God-sponsored projects had everyone talking.’ And do you know what I am going to say? ‘You missed the boat. All you did was use me to make yourselves important. You don’t impress me one bit. You’re out of here.'”- Jesus

The mirror

November 15, 2009


I have a love-hate relationship with the mirror.

There are some days when I look into the mirror and thank God for his wonderful creation (I am serious!). I may not be drop dead gorgeous but I think I look quite comfortable. lol… 

Then there are days that I dread looking into the mirror, like those days when my hair is awfully frizzy or those bad face days where the pores are disgustingly clogged and pimples popping.

I remember when I was 12 or so, I have such bad acne, I don’t even dare to look at the mirror.

On a sidenote,


if I look like that, I will definitely bring a mirror wherever I go, and check on every single reflective surfaces. hahs!

Okays, that’s beside the point.

My point is Everyone wants to look good. Everyone loves to look at themselves when they look good.

We feel good, when we look good.

We feel spiritually good, when we look spiritually good.

The word of God has often been referred to as a mirror. When we read the bible, we are at the same time looking at our own spiritual reflection. Our eagerness towards reading the bible is a good indication of our spiritual countenance. 

Some people with pimples don’t like to look at their reflections in the mirror. That, is escapism. 

Some people with pimples, look at the mirror, don’t like what they see. But don’t do anything. That, is no better.

Now, no matter how you look at the mirror, your face will be filled with pimples. But what the mirror does is, it tells you what is wrong. And to make yourself look better,  you need to do something!

Moral of the story is thus,

1. If we want to look better, we need to brace our heart and look into the mirror.

2.After taking that courageous step to scrutinising every pore and eyelashes, we need to start doing damage control.

3.Take action and correct according. E.g if you have serious pimple problem, You want to apply pimple cream, or start washing your face regularly. See a dermatologist if you have such a serious issue. It may be expensive but you get nice complexion after that!

4.If there is no mirror, then we will never know where we have gone wrong. 

Translate that spiritually…

1. If we want to be more spiritual, we need to measure our life against the bible

2.After taking that courageous step of scrutinising every sin and insecurity, we need to start doing damage control.

3.Take action and correct according. E.g if you have a serious punctuality problem, You may want buy a watch, get a planner, get a noisy ALARM CLOCK, to ALARM you that you will be late soon.  If that don’t work, employ the help of friends and leaders to fine you  an exorbitant amount of money when you are late. It may be expensive but it WORKS!

4.If we don’t measure our life with the WOG, we will never know what’s wrong.

I am working my way to be a spiritual Jennifer Aniston, what about you?

Feeling spiritually good….and physically shall catch up soon. hur hur….

” 22Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says. 23Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like a man who looks at his face in a mirror24and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like. 25But the man who looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues to do this, not forgetting what he has heard, but doing it—he will be blessed in what he does.” James 1:22-24

He takes care of me

November 12, 2009


 27-29“Has anyone by fussing in front of the mirror ever gotten taller by so much as an inch? All this time and money wasted on fashion—do you think it makes that much difference? Instead of looking at the fashions, walk out into the fields and look at the wildflowers. They never primp or shop, but have you ever seen color and design quite like it? The ten best-dressed men and women in the country look shabby alongside them.

 30-33“If God gives such attention to the appearance of wildflowers—most of which are never even seen—don’t you think he’ll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you? What I’m trying to do here is to get you to relax, to not be so preoccupied with getting, so you can respond to God’s giving. People who don’t know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works. Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don’t worry about missing out. You’ll find all your everyday human concerns will be met.

 34“Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes. – Matthew 6:30-34

The is my QT passage today.

My heart is so hearten by God’s providence in my life.

He promise to take care of me, so I will not be afraid. 🙂

21 Days

November 6, 2009


There is a saying that we need 21 days to change/form a habit.

There are some habits that I want to change and some other that I want to pick up.

21 days.

The first thing on my list,

quality time with God. 

No matter how close, I must not take the Holy Spirit for granted.

This is the holy list.

1. Quality time with God

2. Exercise

3. Healthy eating

4. Reading and journaling

5. Practicing my guitar, keyboard and vocals!

6. Being Punctual

Seriously, i think if I can do all 6, God will be grinning from ear to ear, and I prolly will not be complaining so much. 

Alrights! 21 DAYS, exciting 21!

My dear fair weather friend

November 5, 2009


My dear fair weather friend,
you invited me on an expedition with you.
An exciting journey you promised, where we discover new things.
Marvelous things that enchants our heart.

You went ahead, I follow behind.
I was unsure, you seem certain.
I mimic every move that you make,
even those expression you had when you tripped and fall.

It was fun till night falls.
The sunsets and we soon got lost.
Well you got lost.
I lost you and we went out of touch.

Not a word, not a sound,
you simply disappeared.
That taught me fear and brought me tears.
You see I was alone in the darkness.

I must be a fool to search for you.
I tried calling out for you,
over and over till I sound like a fool.
My efforts prove to be in vain and I start to feel the pain.

I thought we were in this together till you abandon me.
I must have been very foolish yet I still choose to believe,
that you had loved me.
You just loved yourself more.

Alternate worlds

November 3, 2009

Alternate worlds is a concept, whereby when we choose to walk a certain path at a crossroad, we speculate the possibilities of what happens if we choose the other path; what goes on in the other world.

In the past, I used to practise this alot, almost to a point of obsession. But I come to realise speculations do not provide any substantial results, taken to an extreme it might even strain current situations, simply because of wild imaginations.

I made a mistake when I was 17, followed by a whole series of bad decisions, I reaped the consequences now that I am 21. The fact remains that when I decide to screw up my JC education, the screw up was not just for 2years, but it change the course of my education path. Along the way I also made many many bad decisions, that really had me thinking should I have taken another path, make a different decision, will things be better? The if onlys and what ifs partners my regrets as I mulled over the circumstances, trying to justify.

But I have come to a resolve, that even as I have failed, many times. I am not a failure. Well, not yet.
Instead of speculating on alternate worlds, I should work with whatever I have in my current world. Live with this path that I have chosen to take and strive to make better decisions next time.

My bottom line is bad decisions don’t cause failures. Bad attitude does.
I want to maintain a humble heart to admit and learn from my mistakes so as not to continue that same wrong over and over.
I will not allow speculations to affect my objectivity towards situations.