Archive for August, 2009

peek into enemy’s ground

August 30, 2009

The devil’s most abused tool is always emotions and insecurities.

His worst lie is always “an eye for an eye.”

I guess, with God, I’m on a higher ground, I seriously do not want to stoop as low as returning people an eye for an eye. Too childish, too juvenile.


Totally bimbo moment

August 28, 2009

I just had a bimbo moment with shuyan… LOL.


bimbo 2

bimbo 3

And we gonna catch coco avant chanel next week, HOW NICE! so happy 🙂

Dorian Gray

August 26, 2009


My first encounter with Dorian Gray is while listening to James Blunt’s Tears and Rain.

Out of curiousity I went to find out more about this Dorian Gray and I realize he is a character from Oscar Wilde’s The Picture of Dorian Gray.

Till now, this remain my most favourite book from Oscar Wilde.

Summary of the story

What intrigue me is how on the outside Dorian Gray retains his beauty but his portraits (which reflects his truth self)  ages and become uglier and uglier. Oscar Wilde is truly talented to portray such hypocrisy of man along with fear,guilt and ugliness.

I am just thinking, if we live life like spiritual Dorian Grays, the end point would be tragic. To appear glorious on the outside but ebbing on the inside.

Thank God, the bible offers another way of life

“Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.”2 Corinthians 4:16

Hedonism has no end, because the carnality of man knows no limit nor satisfaction.

Interested readers can borrow the book from me.

Pretty heavy book that touches on hedonism and homosexuality, only recommended for the mature.

Out of the box

August 24, 2009

tiffany-blue-boxI have a bad habit.

I have tendency to be in my own little world and perceive things in my own little box.

Once a while, I will get out of the box and have a shock of my life.

Perhaps that’s why I hate getting out of that box, because such shocks are seriously uncomfortable.

Hey by the way, I think my box very big ok.

Still, once a while, will get out of that box, for cheap thrills and that weird sensation that pricks my heart to discover something new.

Anyhow, I got out of my box today, perusing the blog of some pretty successful people.

I feel uncomfortable because…

#1: There are so many people being successful in life, they seem like doing alot, make me feel stupid.

#2: Alot of people (such successful people) don’t like christians

#3: There are alot of overzealous dumb christians.

#4: I eye candied several covertiblies and did some serious mental note taking of how can I really have them. Then I had a moral deliemma of why would I spend half a million dollars on a car when african kids are dying of hunger. Just because I want to look cool? WAH lau eh. But, it’s really cool can.


frm left, Lexus IS 2010, Mercedes Mclaren SLR.

#5: I youtubed KARI JOBE and I immediately felt like I cannot sing.

However, such shocks and awakenings are actually good for me.

I have a better idea of the real world and how I can improve myself.

A truly eye opening and humbling process for me.

2 things I resolve to do,

1. To be continually expose to new things and information.

2. To increase in my knowlegde of the WOG.

Coz exposure and relevance to the world is important.

But biblical principles is the bottom line.


August 22, 2009


We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. ~2 Corinthians 10:5

Jesus didn’t die on the cross for pettiness.

Jesus didn’t die on the cross so that we make use of people to make ourself better.

Tonight, I made a decision, that since my redemption in Christ didn’t come cheap, I must not be emo mo mo, but I want to holy moly.

I made another dangerous prayer tonight, that my life will live out the redemption song. Hahs.

If I fail, I will try again. Again and again.

Killing me softly

August 21, 2009


Strumming my pain with his  fingers.

Singing my life with his words.

Killing me softly with his song.

Killing me softly with his song.

Telling my whole life with his words.

Killing me softly,

with his song.

I just want to say that

August 17, 2009

I am busy, but I am happy.

I am glad that I manage to run errands and get busy with my shepherd the whole of today. I enjoy following her as she follow Jesus, serving her as she fellow Jesus.

It heartens me today also that the NEC shepherds helped out in the packing of the goodie bags. Some of my sheep helped too.

I went home with Sheppy today, I shared some things in my heart.

She smiled and she said, she understand.

It heartens me that in the midst of her busyness, she took time to listen to me and empathize with me. I truly enjoy my time with  her. I am real about my struggles before her because I trust her. I trust her because she love God. She is not perfect, but I know a woman after God’s heart is trustworthy enough for my vulnerability.

And I hope that God will give me oppurtunities to do more work with my sheep, so that I can spend quality time with them and serve God at the same time. And I hope, my sheep will enjoy me like how I enjoy my shepherd, because, I want to invest in each and everyone of them. 🙂

I am a time person. Nothing beats meaningful time.

I don’t need alot, just enough.

You see, shepherding is not  just about meeting 2hours,3hours,4hours, spending time talking about God.

True shepherding, is the sheep following the shepherd to follow the Chief shepherd.

I am, but human.

August 11, 2009

When night falls, it’s ever so easy to sink into a pitless overture of melancholy. Issues, things that didn’t go my way, dissonance.

I am only human to feel the things that I feel.

I thus seek comfort in the minor chords and words that feed my thoughts.

That, is the past.

I am human, but I am also a God lover.

These days I refuse to let negative words bring me down.

I refuse to bow at the taunting of the devil.

Nothing and nobody can dictate my thoughts and feelings.

The tension between carnality and holiness lies in how much do we love. Or rather, who do we love.

Careless spiritual adultery will eventually  lead to spiritual divorce. I have known better to not even flirt with the devil.

“Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. 2Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.” Hebrews12:1-3

The Church

August 9, 2009

As we desire to see the church grow from glory to glory, small groups need to grow from strength to strength

This is a conviction that God had placed in my heart post rendition, and was being re-emphazied by Ps Jeff’s challenge during CL retreat.

Simply because there is nothing like a local church when the local church is working right.

The church is made up of people.

The small groups in the church connects the people.

If the small groups are strong, the church will be strong.

The small groups are strong, when every member, know and they know that God is the lord of their lives.

I love God’s church.

Nuances and Innuendos

August 5, 2009

If I find in myself, desires nothing in this world can satisfy, I can only conclude, I was not made for here.– brooke fraser.

Nuances and Innuendos, subtle delivery,vested intentions.

Often times, the very things that damage is not the obvious, but the subtle hints that creeps into us offguard.

While packing the room, I contemplated my thoughts.

Benefit of doubt, is cast out of faith.

Faith is cast upon God.

Sometimes we don’t have all the answers to the perplexing questions of human relationships. Why people do what they do. But what we do know is that there is a God that makes sure no one gets shortchange at the end of the day.

“Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith.”Hebrews12:2