Never, has the going been this tough.
Never, have I felt God so close to my heart.
There is a God shape hole, that nothing else can fill.
There is a God filled heart that nothing else can empty.
1. Take God seriously.
2. Take my life and decision making more seriously.
3. Take myself less seriously.
My prayer tonight is simple,
At one point, it felt as if, every aspect of my life had been mashed up in a blender, all messy and mixed up.
Tonight’s prayer is simple, but hard to abide.
But I believe where there is breathe, there can still be a change.
As long as I am living and breathing, I can make a difference.
Favourite verse from James
“ 18But someone will say, “You have faith; I have deeds.”
Show me your faith without deeds, and I will show you my faith by what I do.” James 2:18
Disappointments are platforms for Successes.
While it pains me to understand the less of me today, I am hearten to know more of Him.
We spent far too much time chasing winds, the unseen feeling.
Caught up by the momentary rush, swept from head to toe.
We are all but one.
One but none.
When we thought we have it all, own it all
We then realize that we own nothing at all.
We tell ourselves there will always be tomorrow and we squandered tomorrow,
when tomorrow become yesterday and the yesterday is the last of our days,
we come face to face with life’s dead end.
There is no tomorrow, the time is now.
When tomorrow has become yesterday and we realized nothing has changed.
We know there is no one else to blame.
If we live every breaking dawn on borrowed time, a time will come for us to pay.
Our failure to comply with life’s payment put us in bankruptcy.
This, is the rhetoric of life.
I observed, that are two common fallacies that happen during tough moments
1. We take suffering too personally and grace too lightly.
For every bad thing that happened, we feel offended, as if something is taken away from us.
2. We never pray enough.
I admit that sometimes, during tough circumstances, the last thing I want to do is to pray. Coz at the back of my mind, I would be thinking, God is the one who got me into this, or other people are the ones got me into this situation, I don’t see how praying will change things. Moreover I am angry with God, I can’t even bring myself to face him, much less pray.
But do you know, there is this rule that, when 2 people quarrel the right thing to do, is to allow time for either parties to cool down, and never to leave the sight of either one, or even if they do, they are not suppose to off their phones. In other words, the right thing to do after a disagreement is to remain contactable.
I think likewise, when we face challenges in life, more or less, we will blame many things, including ourselves and also God. But the key thing is to not shut down communication with God.
And I think this is why God want us to pray fervently and persistently. God is almighty he can worked, even WITHOUT our prayer. But I guess, he choose to work through prayer, because he desires a relationship with us, a personal one. He don’t just want us to think about him, but to really talk to him. Perhaps that’s why he give us a heavenly tongue. He wants communication to be personal.
I want to make it a point to really pray more, because I believe in the life changing power of prayer.
I want to make it a point to pray for the salvation of my family daily, so that I can replace the altars at home with “As for me and my household, we will serve the Lord.” I believe this day will come.
“Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.” James 1:2-3
Prayer is a physical act of persevering in faith.
“Concrete jungle where dreams are made of
There’s nothing you can’t do
Now you’re in New York
These street will make you feel brand new
Big lights will inspire you
Let’s hear it for New York, New York, New Yoooork!”
@hersdale, if you are reading this post, this destination is kept for you 
She forgot to bring the card for me, (which is really the reason why I wana meet her, coz I want to get the card)
She set aside the whole of today for me coz when she starts her new job such days are hard to come by.
At one point, I wondered what is there for us to do for the entire day, but time seems to fly pass as we spent time eating, shopping and…looking for the perfect lip colour. Going from counters to counters, I soon learnt the different characteristics of lipsticks from different brands, what’s good and what never to touch. I learn too, the proper way to swipe the lipstick on one’s lip. Something no one really taught me growing up. It was indeed a heartening experience when we finally seal the deal on THE perfect lipstick. And I am glad I am part of this “laborious” process.
When we settled at starbucks (because I will feel incomplete if I don’t end my night this way), we sat side my side and she listened to the things I don’t quite understand, pointed out the principles that I missed out. What are my fault and what ain’t. It helped me to understand why she did what she did.
On a piece of starbucks serviette, she explore with me the ways that I can earn money for my fees. It felt uncomfortable to be forced out of my comfort zone, but I am glad, we did it.
On our ride home, she tries to brainstorm ways to help my situation.
At the end of the day, as I look back, I am hearten to have a friend who really cares about what’s best for me.
This is she, a friend, a devil’s advocate (always asking me questions that makes me uncomfortable), a sister.
I’m glad I can close 2009 with her (since will be working the whole of 31st).
She is definitely not perfect, a little irritating at times, but,
Thank God for such a beautiful soul
I am a cynic when it comes to hocus pocus, but I do believe in supernatural.
God is naturally supernatural and works supernaturally in natural ways.
This, I was reminded when I spent time praying in the spirit and felt peace, assurance and answers to some questions I had been pondering for a while. On top of that, several prayers were also answered in an unexpected way.
It’s simply a “natural” act of prayer, opening my mouth and pray, but it reaps “supernatural” results, like brand new insights, and turnaround in circumstances.
Spirituality cannot be taken for granted.
I must safeguard it at all times.
